by JennyReika Sun Aug 16, 2009 8:04 am
I agree with Haji.
I feel like nobody cared about what we thought at all when we were the ones coming here almost every day and trying to figure out something and trying to keep what was left of the Divisions alive.
Even through my busy schedule, I tried to come here every day and tried to do something and post and just keep the divisions and everything else alive somehow, in the best way I knew how.
I am really disappointed in the Admin. I just dont know in what other way to put it. I think that Moonie & Ruru are 2 phenomenal ppl, and I dont really know Hina too well, but I know that this was a bogus move on all of their parts... Not letting any of the Captains know, and allowing them the time to tell their Division members, whether there are 20, or 2 members... is just not a good way to handle things, very disrespectful to the ppl that you gave some kind of trust, its almost a slap in the face to not even give them a warning, almost like saying, your opinion doesnt really matter, but we tried to make you feel like it did before, but when it comes down to it, not so much.
There are ppl who have built these Divisions from the ground up, and then one day they log on without any notice and theyre gone. All their hard work gone. Everything that they had worked for, spent time on, all gone.
I thought we were trying to make everybody feel equal? But where is the equality when you take 3 ppl and make a decision for everybody? Seems more like a Tyranny than a Democracy.
Not that it matters, or has anything to do with it, but I had a really crappy day.
I woke up this morning with my best friend and her and I were getting ready to go home, my car started overheating on our way home, and I had to stop. There was nobody on this old road, and we thought nobody would ever come past and stop, about an hour later, a guy stopped and gave me some coolant, but it didnt help for too long. I then had to listen to her insane husband calling her phone and telling her she better get home like a little kid, and made me feel like the crappy friend, I then took her to her appointment on my broken down car, and then brought her to my house to find out my mechanic wont be in until Monday. When I get here, my ex is ignoring me and treating me like I wronged him, even though I wasnt even here for the night... then I try to tell my mother about how stressed out I am, and she makes a joke about it and compares me to her sisters sons who are extremely successful, and makes me feel like I am not worth a dime... To make things worse, I met this guys mother who I hadnt planned on meeting, she just happened to show up, and she was really nice to me, which made me feel good, but then it turns out once I left she said it was disrespectful to be wearing a low cut top, and after all I had been through, I finally broke and just cried everywhere.
This has been my day.
I log onto BD, thinking it might make me feel better, and my Division is gone, and everything that Haji and I worked to make is gone as well.
Needless to say, I am very disappointed... I feel the same as Haji, but am too depressed and saddened to put it as eloquently as he did.
I am staying though, mostly for the Division members that I feel I let down... moreso because I guess I didnt work hard enough to have any say so, or even have the right to be told my Division and all my work, and their work, would be disappearing.
I am sorry if somebody didnt like what I said, but I say what I think is right, and fight for what I believe in... and I believe in Loyalty.
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